Friday, March 30, 2012

The Gamble of Life

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
"What is essential is invisible to the eye."
Excerpt from The Little Prince
by Antoine de Saint Exupery

Risks
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. People who risk nothing, do nothing, have nothing and are nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love -- live. Chained by their certitudes, they are slaves, they have forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free

Don't worry about 
failure.
Worry about the 
chances you miss
when you don't
even try.


This term in communications we're focusing on relationships. I'm talking all relationships. Family, friends, the whole deal.. not just boyfriend girlfriend stuff. 
Taking risks is scary sometimes, but without risk life would be.. dull. Very dull and boring. Risk makes life worth living. Risk can hurt, but it can also be rewarding. How you react to risk is all dependent upon whether or not you're willing to make that gamble. 

Thursday, March 29, 2012

A New Appreciation

It's easy to take the things we have for granted. Each day we enjoy the comforts of some item is another day that the significance of such luxuries are lost, bit by bit.. That was phrased bad. What I mean is, if you go camping for a week, when you get home all you want is a hot shower and to sleep in your bed. After a couple days the appreciation is gone.

I've recently had a wake up call.. I guess that happens when you get an adopted brother..
My family and my home, they have always been a place of safety for me. Always. I know my parents love me and my life is good. I've got a good life.
Some people don't have that.
That feeling of safety and love given by parents and family, I never realized how... how much of a blessing that is.. I mean, yeah I've acknowledged that I have a good life, but wow. I couldn't even imagine what not having those things [love and safety] feels like.. til we adopted this brother.
All I can say is wow. I love having him here, I love that we are able to help him. I love that he is happy.
Sure, the situation may not be ideal, but we are making a difference in someone's life.
"In the end they'll judge me anyway."
People will make judgements, they're entitled to their opinions, but you know what?
We are doing the right thing, I know we are. 

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Good Times :)

Hunger Games was fantastic. 
The effects from going to the midnight showing.. not so much. But then I remember that I saw the Hunger Games and it's all good :D

Festival of Colors an adventure and a half.. not to mention the 3 freeway high-fives ;)




Thursday, March 22, 2012

Killing Time

Ha so once upon a time I signed up for 'Library Aid' as one of my classes... Yeah, bad idea considering I also work at the city library and now know more than a high schooler should have to know about the workings of a library.. Anyhow. I have been left in charge. Haha, yep. I'm the boss :) It's great.


I see a fire truck parked in the front of the school. Why do I see a fire truck??

Woman in Black. Go see it.
Ha, I'll be honest, I was mocking it at first and I kept expecting Daniel Radcliffe to pull out his wand, but really it was a good show. Not much of a plot, but definitely worth it. After dropping Charley off I had to drive home by myself though and oh my heck! I was scared even when he was in the car.. granted, it didn't help that he was telling me ghost stories and how the Oak Canyon Jr. High's girl's locker room is haunted.. Once he left I hit my lock button, and ya know how all the locks go down at the same time? Yeah, it repeated like 6 freakin' times! And I only hit the button once! I was ready to cry I was so scared. Before that happened I was having trouble enough not looking anywhere except the road immediately in front of me, but then I was scared of looking inside the car too! Ha, it was terrible.
But hey. Those are the times when cell phones come in handy ;)

That fire truck is still there.. actually there might be 2, it's kinda hard to tell. Odd.

Oh so midnight showing of the Hunger Games tonight after a visit with Amber and Brock.. Ha, yeah, super excited and hope all goes well :)

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Silence

Don't let the length of this poem stop you from reading it. There are so many truths, that if you actually think about what its saying.. something will ring true for you. You will know the exact feeling. When I read these individual lines... 

I have known the silence of the stars and of the sea 
And the silence of a great love,  

 Memories resurface. I remember moments in time where everything was perfect. That time where I stopped and looked up at the stars or down at the canal or over the valley. Time stops. Life is perfect and simple. Cherish those moments of silence when all is right with the world. In that moment, when everything stops, time isn't lost. It's gained. Something happens where even the biggest worry disappears and seems small and insignificant when compared with what is. It's that ah-ha moment that has the potential to change your life.

And the silence of an embittered friendship

I don't know what life has in store for me, all I know is that things happen for a reason. People make mistakes and the only thing to do is to learn from them. I have regrets. "What happened doesn't define what it was." -A.J.
I know that my life is going exactly the way it's supposed to. Someday, somehow it'll all work out, but until then the only thing I can do is find joy in the good things.
SILENCE by EDGAR LEE MASTERS
I have known the silence of the stars and of the sea,
And the silence of the city when it pauses,
And the silence of a man and a maid,
And the silence of the sick
When their eyes roam about the room.
And I ask: For the depths,
Of what use is language?
A beast of the field moans a few times
When death takes its young.
And we are voiceless in the presence of realities --
We cannot speak.

A curious boy asks an old soldier
Sitting in front of the grocery store,
"How did you lose your leg?"
And the old soldier is struck with silence,
Or his mind flies away
Because he cannot concentrate it on Gettysburg.
It comes back jocosely
And he says, "A bear bit it off."
And the boy wonders, while the old soldier
Dumbly, feebly lives over
The flashes of guns, the thunder of cannon,
The shrieks of the slain,
And himself lying on the ground,
And the hospital surgeons, the knives,
And the long days in bed.
But if he could describe it all
He would be an artist.
But if he were an artist there would be deeper wounds
Which he could not describe.

There is the silence of a great hatred,
And the silence of a great love,
And the silence of an embittered friendship.
There is the silence of a spiritual crisis,
Through which your soul, exquisitely tortured,
Comes with visions not to be uttered
Into a realm of higher life.
There is the silence of defeat.
There is the silence of those unjustly punished;
And the silence of the dying whose hand
Suddenly grips yours.
There is the silence between father and son,
When the father cannot explain his life,
Even though he be misunderstood for it.

There is the silence that comes between husband and wife.
There is the silence of those who have failed;
And the vast silence that covers
Broken nations and vanquished leaders.
There is the silence of Lincoln,
Thinking of the poverty of his youth.
And the silence of Napoleon
After Waterloo.
And the silence of Jeanne d'Arc
Saying amid the flames, "Blessed Jesus" --
Revealing in two words all sorrows, all hope.
And there is the silence of age,
Too full of wisdom for the tongue to utter it
In words intelligible to those who have not lived
The great range of life.

And there is the silence of the dead.
If we who are in life cannot speak
Of profound experiences,
Why do you marvel that the dead
Do not tell you of death?
Their silence shall be interpreted
As we approach them. 

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Summer Job??

Dear Barrick..
 Yes you are a mining company and yes I have absolutely no experience with mining.. well, sort of, but not really... anyway, you should hire me. Yes, I'm small and only 18.. in April :) but how cool would that be to be able to say I work for a mine?? Ha, I doubt many other girls my age could say that. And personally, I think I'd be pretty good at hauling dirt in a huge truck.. I mean, XM radio and texting? Ha who wouldn't like that?? And the office stuff wouldn't be that bad either.. although, you know, I don't know how well this early morning thing is going to work, but I guess that only comes if I get the job, huh?

Here's to hoping my application goes through and I have an awesome summer job :)

Thursday, March 1, 2012

What's Important?

"We all have baggage, the stuff we always carry with us. But what are the essentials, the things we simply can't live without? And what are the things we'd be better leaving behind? Its hard to know what's in your own baggage until you take a closer look."
Jane by Design... I know, I watch too much tv


I heard this and it got me thinking.
We.. at least I.. waste so much time. What are the things that actually matter in my life and what am I doing about it? Ha, all I mean is what am I doing to keep the important things important??